Dizzy

by Natalie Robin

True to form, I have changed my mind on just about everything I was thinking and feeling since the New Year. To start, My New Years resolution for 2013 was to find good love–and I meant in a human being, but I take it back. Humans are too hard for now. My new New Years resolution (is it too late?) is to find good love in everything else; a minor change that I hope can be facilitated. A human can come later, hopefully when I am least expecting it so that I can be so dizzy in love that I think the world is stupid.

I also thought that I had a good grasp on consciousness and what it means to be conscious, but I watched a TED talk that threw me. Now I am not sure if what I’m looking at is ever really what my mind thinks it is and consequently if my thinking is at all helping me get to the “what does it all mean”, or if it even matters what it all means. All I know is I want to be a better person, but it’s kinda fucking hard when LIFE.

Ultimately, this is how I feel today:

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